As I look back at my life, I sometimes wonder where and who I would be if I didn't have EM. I've been through a lot of pain and struggle and sometimes feel it is a miracle that I am even still here let alone do the things that I do. I remember 6 years ago getting the diagnosis, thinking my life is over... I never thought I would be where I am now. I have done a lot of things that have been really hard for me to do... running, Ironman, etc... now I have my biggest challenge yet, PREGNANCY.
I have had 2 unplanned pregnancies and miscarriages 5 and 8 years ago, and I just chaulked it up to the poor baby didn't stand a chance with EM. Maybe my body wasn't able to have kids? The doctor said I would probably need help getting pregnant in the future... But, maybe I shouldn't bring a child into this world with the risk of EM? All these thoughts have been running through my mind for years... and now it is real. I pray that my baby doesn't end up with EM. It is a scary thought for a mother to bring a child into so much pain. You want the best for your baby, and EM is not it. I pray that if the baby does end with EM, at least the baby will have me to teach 'em how to live with it. As painful as EM is, at least it is not a death sentence. Maybe, the baby will find a cure for EM some day. :) I guess we will have to wait and see. Either way, my baby is a miracle. Even through birth control pills, EM drugs, running like a crazy woman for 2 months training for my 50 miler not knowing I'm preggers, and falling off a cliff during my race. My baby was meant to be! and sounds like he/she takes after mommy.... DETERMINED TO BE ALIVE AND VERY STUBBORN. :) YAY BABY!
Right when I found out I was pregnant, I had to get off of Amitriptyline which can cause birth defects in rats and possibly humans. It is funny to think back on my doctor's "weaning " off it schedule, but it wasn't funny at the time!! Apparently, you can't go cold turkey and quit it because it can cause seizures, death, and possibly problems with the baby... so he says " Day 1, 50%, Day 2: 25%, Day 3: 25%, Day 4: Zero!!! It made me so sick!! my feet were horrible, I couldn't sleep... IT WAS A NIGHTMARE! But I had to keep reminding myself that it was best for the baby. During the 2nd and 3rd month, I had horrible "morning sickness". Don't know why they call it morning, when it was 24/7.. it was worse at night, and I just lay in bed trying not to puke. I couldn't run either, partially because of my torn tendon, but mainly because if I thought about running, I would puke! If I read my ultra running magazines, I would puke! Anything green would make me puke as well, especially asparagus.. blech. I could smell if someone had eaten it and it made me puke. The worst bit was car/subway/motion sickness.. I threw up on the subway on the way to the OB doc and it was so embarrasing!! At least when I hit the 2nd trimester, it went away!!!
I was super nervous going to the first trimester screening scan at the hospital where they try and determine spina bifida, and down syndrome. My baby wouldn't cooperate at all and it took 2 days for him to finally be in the right position. And baby was fine!! YAY BABY!
Cravings: CHEESE, CHEESE, WHOLE BLOCKS OF CHEESE
2nd Trimester
Yay No sickness, and I was able to run again! Ankles were swollen and painful, feet swelled, stomach starting to stretch, hard time sleeping, and EXTREMELY HOT. My cats normally shed in the summer, this year, they are furrier than the winter!! Dan says because it is so bloody freezing in here... but i don't care! A prego girl with EM is going to be HOT. I just tell him " I dont care if you turn into Frosty the Snowman." :)
ITS A BOY!
Week 17 we go to a Ultrasound place in R.I. with my parents, Nana, Dan and my aunt! It was still too early for 3D, but we wanted to know the sex of the baby. I knew he was a boy, but I think my family wanted a girl because they don't have any girl grandkids. But, Dan says that his family only has boys too, so it was pretty certain to be a boy. Of course he wouldn't show us his bits... until I gave him chocolate. SO the joke is : Baby will flash for chocolate. :)
Week 20 we went back to the hospital for the Anatomy scan where they look at all parts of the baby...and everything looks normal! YAY BABY! I love looking at him ...he is so cute!!
week 23 we went back and had a 3D and 4D pictures and video done... he is starting to look like a baby now and less alien like. 
week 26 went in for blood glucose 2 hour test, and that orange drink is horrible@! the 2 hour wait wasn't fun either, and my glucose turned out normal. YAY can still eat chocolate.
I know it has been a while since blogging, but I will try to keep up with during these last few months with my details and hopes and fears.
Cravings: WATERMELON, LOTS OF IT ...EVEN with cheese. :) and Peanut Butter
"Everything grows rounder and wider and weirder, and I sit here in the middle of it all and wonder who in the world you will turn out to be."
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